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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|03:11 pm] |
well amsterdam was hilariously fantastic! I had so much fun. Indulged in some odd drugs, ate some space cakes with germans. Got off with my ever so gorgous german guild mate accidentally. It just kinda happened, dont judge me!! Rich wasnt feelin great (he's a shit drinker) and went back to the hotel early. I stayed in a biker bar in the red light district with marc, tim, lynny and arthur. It was epically warm so me and marc went a stroll to see the hookers. aparantly there was a brothel specializing in fat women and i was morbidly curious. Marc was generally quiet, and im generally loud so think i kinda just convinced him. he prob didnt know what i was sayin anyways with my hyperness (and i wasnt high, was behaved that day). So we went strolling by the canal, and it just got abit all romantic and he kissed me ^_^. Now, I must say. wow!! He had to lift me up a little because he's so tall (or maybe im so small). Then he lifted me up, sat me on a railing on the bridge and we just enjoyed each other's company. And the german accent is a massive turn on! I'm regretting now takin the piss outta him for looking aryan. He definately did tho but was gorgous and not scary. Kinda the tall, quiet type which i just latched to. It was all very unexpected. But ill never complain.And he was able to actually my name, the english and americans werent able to say it. grrr. And then the next day I got a call of Marc askin me to meet him. He drove to my hotel, bundled me into his car and we drove to some fancy park and had a picnic by the lake. with a bottle of wine. Yes, He is now. My. Perfect. Man.... too bad he lives in germany. He really really made an impression on me and I even had a few dreams. And yes the odd thought slipped into my head on whether he's be equally as amazing in the sack. I know, shame on me but i cant help it. I'm curious. When we finished our lunch and wine, and i dozed off sleeping on his chest a little. We drove back to the hotels picked up rich and tim. then they drove us to amsterdam airport. It was a perfect end to my holiday.
As for the actual guild meet, it was good craic. Everyone was lovely and friendly. Even LG (our raid leader) who usually scares me and tells me off all the time for standin in the bad stuff. We met Gart (marc), Glodd (tim), Sharl (karin) and LG (steve) in hard rock cafe on the friday night. We coudlnt see them and spend about 10 minutes wanderin round the bar. we only found them after some dutch waiter started followin me around askin to take pics of my tattoos and chattin bout dr who (i was wearin a backless dr who top) and we seen them all laughin and waving at us. We then went to the heiniken bar and so on.
Did touristy stuff on the saturday, had some space cookies with some weird germans, visited a torture museum (which is interesting when your high). I wanted to visit a place called the dungeon but rich didnt want to go in incase it was a brothel. seen ann franks house, visited a few museums. visited another drug cafe, met more odd people. Got chatted up by a norwegian man (who i may add was gorgous but looked like a serial killer). we went to the pub, then off to meet the guildies at 4 at the heiniken.
We were first there, then lucaske and his missus. Marc and Glodd turned up next. Followed by lynny, arthur, Isa, LG and sharl and Chiko. Later bart and his missus, kondood and his turned up. Then the guild overlord and his brood, including his 15 year old son who was a little taken with me. he was really annoying and a little pervy but i was polite and didnt punch him. We went off to a really interesting little restaurant where we were met by Loyalty (Wouter). Heal leader. Who was fantastically lovely to me, I even got to ride his little bike! Dinner was very odd, served dutch cuisine and it was sweltering hot. in between every 15 mins i had to step outside to get air or else i was gonna pass out. Marc was tryin to get me to eat some kinda scary german food that was there, i said no. so he described everything that was in it. i was nearly sick, ewwww. I did try pig skin wrapped in liver. (only because lynny was so persistant). Dear god, i wanted to chop my tongue off and throw it up again just because i was revolted that it was inside me. After dinner, we all went outside, a shopping trolley was found and some fun was had. then back inside for desert.
The guild master and his lot left after, Wouter had work in the mornin so he cycled him. dennis and his wife went. so we all decided to head to the red light district to arthurs favourite pub. My feet were killing me so marc decided to carry me. He just swept me up into his arms. Then refused to let me down, he's very tall. When we got to the pub (heavy metal biker bar \m/) Sharl was abit upset at the hookers on display so her and LG left. Then the rest of the night is as i described previously.
Travelling home was uneventfull. But I'm all buzzing now on remembering everything, especially the chemistry with me and marc. Him and tim were actually off to scotland for 9 days, the day after he got back to germany (its only a 2 hour drive back from amsterdam, omg). And a few days ago i got a call from marc in perth in scotland askin where i lived in ireland. cos him and tim were debating headin over for a few days to see me. ) we decided they'd be not much point in wastin the money. so he actually said next time off he has, he might come visit ^_^
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[Sep. 16th, 2009|01:47 am] |
I am emerging from the murky depths of my mind to let you know that yes, i am alive. No, I'm not fully sane. Still seeing things that arent there, although now just to make myself feel better, I'm pretending its ghosts. It doesnt work too well. However, mental disorders aside, Im doin okay. I am off to Amsterdam on friday til sunday. Have a friend staying with me for a few days and he is off to holland with me as well. Im off for a guild meet which im really looking forward to. Not so much of a wow whore nowadays. I'm not enjoying my main character so much anymore. Healing has gotten abit monotonous.
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[Mar. 22nd, 2009|10:08 pm] |
"Long Way To Happy"
One night to you Lasted six weeks for me Just a bitter little pill now Just to try to go to sleep No more waking up to innocence Say hello to hesitance To everyone I meet Thanks to you years ago I guess I'll never know What love means to me but oh I'll keep on rolling down this road But I've got a bad, bad feeling
It's gonna take a long time to love It's gonna take a lot to hold on It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah Left in the pieces that you broke me into Torn apart but now I've got to Keep on rolling like a stone Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy
Left my childhood behind In a roll away bed Everything was so damn simple Now I'm losing my head Trying to cover up the damage And pad out all the bruises too young to know i had it So it didn't hurt to lose it Didn't hurt to lose it No but oh I'll keep on rolling down this road But I've got a bad, bad feeling
It's gonna take a long time to love It's gonna take a lot to hold on It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah Left in the pieces that you broke me into Torn apart but now I've got to Keep on rolling like a stone Cause it's gonna be a long long way
Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name I just want to thank you Thank you From the bottom of my heart For all the sleepless nights And for tearing me apart yeah yeah
It's gonna take a long time to love It's gonna take a lot to hold on It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah Left in the pieces that you broke me into Torn apart but now I've got to Keep on rolling like a stone Cause it's gonna be a long long way
It's gonna take a long time to love It's gonna take a lot to hold on It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah Left in the pieces that you broke me into Torn apart but now I've got to Keep on rolling like a stone 'cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy |
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[Oct. 8th, 2008|07:45 pm] |
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I, I‘ve seen it all before I, I wanted so much more The things I was sure Were perfect and pure Were nothing more than fantasy So hidden inside Something so unkind You’ll never know until it’s too late
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[Jul. 1st, 2008|06:10 pm] |
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seen the doctor today. was actually fairly convenient that I had a relapse and then already had my appointment for new meds today. I told him about all the shit ive been at. He told me off for being a tit, had a nurse fix my leg for me later. He gave me some sleep meds which apparantly let me sleep for longer and without waking up lots. apparantly it will help with my nightmares but ive only got a weeks worth. I also have to see the surgery's councellor every morning for 2 weeks. He increased my happy meds as well. He did seem fairly optimistic that there working, and so do I. I just had a relapse, apparantly it isnt all that uncommon especially since this month is so fucked up for me with my dads, grans, eamons, and gigi s anniversary. He made me promise that next time im having suicidal feeling that I would call someone, heh. its nice that someone has confidence in me. He's a nice man, doesnt take shit from me or stupid excuses. and is really "if you wanna get better, you need to make yourself better, its not gonna happen on its own"...and yes chris (if you ever use this) I know you've been saying that for ages
anyhows
DOCTOR TRAN!!!! \m/
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[Jun. 27th, 2008|06:41 pm] |
1. Open your song library in a music player. 2. Put it on shuffle and hit play. 3. For each question, type the song that's playing and hit next.
Don't try to play it cool and lie about the answers!
Opening Credits: letting go- ill nino Waking Up: long hot summer - Jimi Hendrix First Day at School: Force Fed - Silent Civilian Falling in Love: 4 U- Korn Sexy Scene: Monolithe of Doubt- After Forever Fight Song: Through Glass- Stone Sour Breaking Up: Monster- Static X Prom/Party: Mortal COmbat Theme Life:Luciferia - Theatres des Vampires Mental Breakdown: Nothing Else Matters- Metallica Driving: Charlie dont cheat- Stormtroopers of death Flashback: Warped beyong Logic - Napalm Death Wedding: Crazy little thing called love- Queen Birth of a Child: Afterglow- Travis Final Battle: A thousand hours- The cure Death Scene: Open your eyes- Snow Patrol Funeral Song: In the Absence of the Sacred - Lamb of God End Credits: Plastic California- Stereophonics |
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[May. 18th, 2008|05:16 pm] |
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The feeling sometimes Wishing you were someone else Feeling as though You never belong This feeling is not sadness This feeling is not joy I truly understand Please don't cry now
Please don't go I want you to stay I'm begging you please Please don't leave here I don't want you to hate For all the hurt that you feel The world is just illusion Trying to change you
Being like you are Well this is something else Who would comprehend That some bad do lay claim Divine purpose blesses them Thats not what I believe And it doesn't matter anyway
A part of your soul Ties you to the next world Or maybe to the last But I'm still not sure But what I do know Is to us the world is different As we are to the world I guess you would know that
Please don't go I want you to stay I'm begging you please Please don't leave here I don't want you to hate For all the hurt that you feel The world is just illusion Trying to change you
Please don't go }(2x) I want you to stay / I'm begging you please Oh please don't leave here I don't want you to change For all the hurt that you feel This world is just illusion Always trying to change you |
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[May. 3rd, 2008|02:34 pm] |
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Actually arrived out in Birkenhead early which is a feat not easily accomplished by me! Iron Man was teh awesomeness!! Was dead pleased with it...albeit I didnt know alot about Iron Man but I was looking forward to seein it and wasnt let down. Myself and the wench then WALKED from birken head to Liscard so thank fuck I was wearing my vans trainers and not my new rocks hehe. We then went to Liverpool and onwards to the Swan for some drinks and then to the Kray.
Was fun, met with some friends and then Matt came down to hang which was nice of him. Felt kinda bad tho 'cos when he arrived I was debating on heading home because my chest felt like it was on fire when I breathe. Still does. Fortunately I've learnt a valuable lesson for myself AND on why my mother is ALWAYS right. Earlier in the day I asked her if it would be ok for me to take painkillers for my chest along with the other things I'm on. She said "no, and dont be drinking either!! really áine, dont be drinking. behave!" That woman knows me too well!!
Well I was behaved. Barely drank anything, stayed til a descent time then me and matt shared a taxi back. And he refused to let me chip in for the taxi (cos he felt sorry for me trying to breathe) wahoo!!
Unfortunately I'm not playing DnD tonight which is really annoying me. I was really looking forward to it. I dont think with my chest I'd beable to manage the hour walk up a massive hill to get to his without passing out. And then with the much they smoke the house is like a chimneyl....i may actually die. Mega gheyage. The tablets im on at the minute make my head feel all floozy and trippy.
eh....eh
Im going to go watch some lost now
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[Apr. 20th, 2008|03:44 pm] |
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| True Love Waits | I'll drown my beliefs To have you be in peace I'll dress like your niece To wash your swollen feet
Just don't leave Don't leave
I'm not living I'm just killing time Your tiny hands Your crazy kitten smile
Just don't leave Don't leave
And true love waits In haunted attics And true love lives On lollipops and crisps
Just don't leave Don't leave
Just don't leave Don't leave |
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[Apr. 7th, 2008|12:23 am] |
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| | sad | ] | I used to want to take a drill to my head Let the pain out of the hole I used to want to cut the veins in my neck Cool the blood boiling my soul When I wondered, why my daily headaches thundered Tried to buffer, pushing down the pain I suffered Mutilated, feeling so humiliated Cannot wash the dirt off underneath my skin
There was a part of me left far behind When at the age of five years old I had my innocence taken from me Emptiness would fill the hole Now a second grader, thinking why I don't feel better Why I'm filthy, why the hell I feel so guilty When drawing stick men of pornographic men and women Thinking all the time there's something wrong with me
Everyday for three years from dawn 'til dusk a migraine would take me and break me And it'd cripple me so much that In dreams, it'd seem, with a hole in my temple that I could probably make my headaches finally go away
Trephination trephination The enemy inside of me won't let me free wants me to bleed
And after three years now my headaches wear off For reasons not quite to me known The acupuncture needles sticking my skin Pushed them down as far as they'd go But now I'm older and now inside my anger smolders from depression, to fighting Taking out my vengeance Consequences, now I'd question during sex if ... Is this how it fucking feels or am I faking it ?
No longer the child that you left there at the bart tracks I'm now at 17, left in an empty blackness On drugs, with thugs, and thinking "Goddamn ?" I'm ending up in a failure, in the gutter passed out
Trephination trephination This enemy inside of me won't let me free wants me to bleed
Now I'm older and in this man an anger smolders Now I'm thinking a hole in you is what I'm seeing Your depression, is the dent I kick in you in vengeance Consequences are the pain I'd give to you
I know that I'm dreaming, but in this dream I go in go through it, and end it And though I'd never do it I'm killing you, hand on the trigger - pull it Your final thought'll be a bullet in your fuckin' head
Trephination trephination This enemy inside of me I'm now killing to make me free. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2008|11:39 am] |
FROM DESPAIR TO WHERE
I WRITE THIS ALONE ON MY BED
I'VE POISONED EVERY ROOM IN THE HOUSE
THE PLACE IS QUIET AND SO ALONE
PRETEND THERE'S SOMETHING WORTH WAITING FOR
THERE'S NOTHING NICE IN MY HEAD
THE ADULT WORLD TOOK IT ALL AWAY
WAKE UP WITH SAME SPIT IN MY MOUTH
CANNOT TELL IF IT IS REAL OR NOT
I TRY AND WALK IN A STRAIGHT LINE
AN IMITATION OF DIGNITY
FROM DESPAIR TO WHERE
FROM DESPAIR TO WHERE
OUTSIDE OPEN-MOUTH CROWDS
PASS EACH OTHER AS IF THEY'RE DRUGGED
DOWN PALE CORRIDORS OF ROUTINE
WHERE LIFE FALLS UNATONED
THE WEAK KICK LIKE STRAW
TILL THE WORLD MEANS LESS AND LESS
WORDS ARE NEVER ENOUGH
JUST CHEAP TARNISHED GLITTER
I TRY AND WALK IN A STRAIGHT LINE
AN IMITATION OF DIGNITY
FROM DESPAIR TO WHERE
FROM DESPAIR TO WHERE
A CRIPPLE WALKS IN A STRAIGHT LINE
AN IMITATION OF DIGNITY
FROM DESPAIR TO WHERE
FROM DESPAIR TO WHERE
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[Nov. 13th, 2007|01:58 am] |
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[Aug. 9th, 2007|04:37 pm] |
i got sent these pictures a few weeks ago.

thats my grandad... :) my aul man
how the fuck they managed to squeeze everyone in this one is beyond me

from left to right: Damien (susan's fiancé): Susan: My Granny: Paul (wina's husband); Edwina : Marcella (michaels fiancé) Michael; My granda Front centre: my brothers Ciaran and Kevin
that was a fun day, when my mum's uncle frank came over from germany. He's a lovely man :)
my glasses cant get fixed as well so gonna post them home so my mum can take them to the opticians i go to and they'll prob send them off to the designers to get fixed. hopefully it wont cost me too much, Ive used all my student money alloted for eyecare on getting the glasses. meh
on the slightly more amusing side, my tongue is green and Miyu attacked wils as he walked past the cage. i also put a bid on a pinstripe steel boned corset...possibly a bad idea since im poor but im really hoping i get it cos its purty and i intend on going out as much as possible when i head home and poking andrew lots. im also tipsy which is usually a bad thing at ten til 5 in the afternoon....
i had the sean's watching high fidelity with me last night which was amusing to say the least,,,i scared them with my lust for john Cusack. they felt very girly watching a romantic comedy and suprisingly didnt mock the film. i reckon it wouldnt be long before they start wearing what little makeup i own and thieving my skirts....
mmm....my geek strappy top is just yummy
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[Aug. 9th, 2007|03:58 pm] |
ok this lightened by immensely miserably mood...very goth at the minute. im just worried that the airport might close or something and stop me heading home next week...i need FOOD!!!
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/northern_ireland/6938110.stm
basically a plane sank into the tarmac...wtf...sinking planes!! only at derry
on the more morbid aspect. last night my "cousin" Sarah died in a car accident. they think that she broke her neck so im grateful at least that she didnt go through too much pain. that can be appreciated. she wasnt actually my cousin. she was my uncle Joe's niece on his wife's side but she basically lived with my uncle since her parents werent exactly bothered about her and was always at my granny kearneys when she was younger. shes a few years older than me but my granny basically reared me, her and kelly.
kelly's mum died when she was a baby so my granny and granda looked after her. my dad died when i was a baby and my granny reared me until my mum married robbie then i lived back home again. then i started getting into trouble and having issues with the amily so mainly lived with my grandparents and gigi when he stayed. and Sarah was always about. twas always just the three of us causing mischief :) my grandparents never would have turned any of us away. lately Sarah and I have been emailing alot, mainly just talking about gigi. he really looked out for the pair of us. he was like my big brother, i could chat to him about anything and i loved him to bits. when it came out that Sarah's mum's boyfriend touched her on occasion gregory hospitalised him and the guy left the town.
when i was in hospital gregory always did his best to help me out. when I was hanging out the guys at derry and ended up in hospital gregory helped me out. most of the rest of the family kind of just avoided talking about it and everything but GiGi always checked up on me. When he found out i was getting bullied by girls walking home from school he met me outside school and walked me home or back to my grannys. when i got beaten up by the guys in the head of the town he hunted them down for me and i never got any more hassle.
i miss him so much, I'll miss Saye as well but it'd for the best for them really i guess...i dont know. im just trying to not cry and be optimistic
my wee birds are so cute
i haven't wowed in 2 days...go me!! getting really bad cravings. well except for last night i just helped mither with a quest and got sexy lootz but that doesnt count...well i dont think anyways. after i study ill reward myself with some wowness :)
ugh i have to try and sort stuff for my new house...we so have to have a big house warming party when were all moved in |
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[Aug. 8th, 2007|03:46 pm] |
Im very tired, very very fucked off. my heads fucked. I feel slightly ill (and wasnt drinking last night, suprisingly). My computer is refusing to work for me. My hard drive is kinda fucked and keeps knocking off which is really frustrating especially when your the main tank in a level 45-50 dungeon cos not only is it pissing you off...but everyone else in your party. AND i cant get games Ive downloaded to install properly. on the plus side I managed to get Spellforce working. That is simply very bizarre cos i was trying for yonks to get the cd key to work. get advice and then next time i try it fucking works...why isnt life like that. But that would be like admitting defeat and having to ASK for help which generally i don't enjoy doing.
I also broke my glasses which FUCKED me off IMMENSELY!!! Im so fucking pissed off at it, nothing fucking goes right for me so now im dying of really bad fucking headaches and painkillers just arent helping and resulting in me being as sick as a dog which further fucks my mood up..
AND im getting absolutely nowhere with my genetics essay...and i mean im getting fucked sideways by it brutally. My heads that fucked i cant concentrate, i dont know whats relevant, i dont know what to write or how much for that matter and i have to submit it on monday which is also the day i have an exam and id be fucked if i knew which one it was...
i really need to ask my mum something and shes on holiday with her family
Life really sucks, please kill me now...please :(
like angels on the verge of suicide i turn my head and shed a tear and fall for what seems like a thousand miles until i hit the cold cement floor beside your feet |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2007|12:49 am] |
so....got hit by a car today and possibly have a fractured wrist but meh, dont care
on the other hand im very very drunk. my eyes have decided to stop working so im merely typing this basically by remembering the positioning of the keys. im getting killed with a headache and i think possibly the reason im so drunk is my meds say for me not to mix with alcohol and other medication...so anti-depressants+too many painkilleres and bottle and half of wine. mmmm....
i dont understand it tho...not that im exaactly complaining here. but kelly's mum took a few anti depressants and a few too many painkillers cos she had migraines (completely accidental i might add) and now shes feast for worms in the ground. [ok just re-read that, its obviously a terrible thing that my aunt is dead] but it works for her by accident yet for me. a bottle of each and does anything happen, no. combined with a bottle of whiskey, my body either loves me or hates me...or im possibly im a vampire which might explain the urges, love of the darkness, insomnia and general sitting up to all hours of the night and the thinness....have you ever seen a fat vampye...nope...you see i rest my case.
im officially a vampire...mmm....wheres keanu reeves when you need him.
i build a beer pyramid in my kitchen. my aim is to have one in every room of the house. i had a toilet roll one in my bathroom but someone knocked it over. damn you wils *shakes fist angrily* twas revenge from eating the last of the bacon
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[Jul. 31st, 2007|05:18 pm] |
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ok i watched a fracking hilarious warcraft thingy the last day but forgot the link.
but check out all my sexy character gear...isnt it all sexy and yummy. all my characters are on Dragonblight.
my main character is a warrior called Áine (see how original i am) http://armory.wow-europe.com/character-sheet.xml?r=Dragonblight&n=Ãine i need to try and get some better gear still, especially on my chest.
my alts just suck balls. there generally just shit and useless atm but they do for when im bored. heres my hunter. shes shit and im leaving my guild cos its shit as well http://armory.wow-europe.com/character-sheet.xml?r=Dragonblight&n=Ezanda
i got my friend torren to join my main's guild tho :) was great.
now the last day i did an alnight gaming session on WoW just trying out different classes, i tried a Horde rogue and levelled him to 10 but i dont like them. only descent thing is sap and the fact that the "collect a so and so from the ?" quests would be done alot quicker. but really? whats the point in sneaking about. its so much fun to charge into battle flailing your mace about like a maniac and screaming. i have a weakness for the mace, what can i say? so i tried a mage as well in horde and that just annoyed me...so...i got a wee baby elven druid. just for when im bored really and want abit of a change. besides the amount of DPS i can get morphing into a cat phawr!!
ill show off my druid when i level up abit
yes,,,im a WoW addict and PROUD OF IT!!!!...(well not really...hehe)
im meeting a guy in york next week. were going exploring and doing useless stuff. should be interesting, never been to york before ^_^
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[Jul. 26th, 2007|03:11 pm] |
i came across this really interesting article
http://www.nickyee.com/daedalus/archives/001545.php?page=1
is basically about the psychology of WoW and how horde are better at PvP than alliance...and thinking about it...its true
most of the times i was at a battleground my side did shit...there was no teamwork, people were being immature and basically they were shit...so that article made me think...especialyl since lately ive been contemplating making a new horde character and giving a PvP proper go....mmmm.....im thinking on making a shaman but not too sure
i had plans to go into town and sort something but i cant be arsed
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